Last of 2010

So new year has already been and gone like 2 hours ago, but anywho ima write about it, and Christmas anyway.

Christmas this year was actually not that bad, considering I'm a scrooge and was not looking forward to it at all. For a long time now Christmas has not had many good memories and it generally reminds me of some of the less awesome things about my life, So this year I was not in the "spirit" at all. On the day however, after being woken up stupidly early, I did have quite a nice time. My nan and grandad and my mom's cousin came round and it was pretty fun. My meat-less dinner was nice and the day was overall pleasant. The only downer was on the night I got really ill with a cold and I've spent most of the last week in bed.

For Christmas I got some pretty cool stuff =]
My Mom is paying for my driving lessons as a Christmas present.
I got money from people for my theory and test, and because I'm the "Awkward Child" who spends money on ear stretchers and random band tee's.
I also got the most epic earphones ever, Skullcandy's, the ones with the sub woofer, so the bass is amazing.
I had a make-up palette which was really nice and I got some more nail polishes so I can carry on with my nail art.
I had alot of chocolate and edibles which i shall be enjoying for the next few months.
Another cool thing I got was a stylophone, I haven't learnt anything on it yet, but I'll keep you updated.

So after Christmas was done I tried to make plans for new years.
I got invited to a couple of parties and I was going to go, But like I said, Ive been really ill, so I wasn't able to go. New year wasn't bad though, My family came round and my mom's boyfriend and some of his family too. I have to say the one thing I hate abut new years is all the status' on facebook and other websites about the whole "new year, new me, time for a change" I don't understand why people have to wait for the start of the new year to change their lives, If your not happy change it whenever, don't wait. I'm not going for a "new me" this year, yes, last year my idea was to re-invent myself but at that point I was very unhappy. Right now, I'm happy with who I am and I don't feel like I need to change.

This is turning into quite a long post, apologies (mainly because I'm about to get all deep). Overall 2010 has been quite an important year for me. I feel like I've moved forward and I'm finally growing up, not in the sense of losing my childhood, I'm a long way off losing my interest in building forts, Play-Doh, Disney and Sabrina the teenage witch. I mean I have grown-up in the way I deal with things, an example would be not getting into to uni a few months back, In 2009 something like that would have pushed me over the edge and I'd have ended up depressed for months, but in 2010, I shrugged it off and found a new path to take and I'm much happier for it.

I'm looking forward to 2011, because I feel alot stronger and happier at the start. There is alot for me to be excited about.

I hope you had a wonderful Christmas, A very happy New year
and I hope ELEVEN is amazing.
Jessybear =]

Timeeee

I forgot I had this. When I randomly stumbled upon here earlier I got to read my old blog from about a year ago, LAWL, I was such a little emo kid, moaning about how awful my life was, If I had a time machine I'd go back and enjoy slapping myself in the face.

So yeah, its been fo'ever, but in the last year I haven't done anything really.
Well, I got through my first year at college and I actually did quite well. I got good grades and a social life. There was a bit of an issue in April/May, when I acted like a douchebag, luckily, Im back to nice Jess now (kinda) and karma is owning me right now.

Back to college, cause' it seems thats all I do. I spent weeks on personal statement, and it wasn't too bad, my tutor said it "could set me apart from other applicants" Epiccc, Except for the courses I picked, I had to go for interviews, Which, me being me, I managed to tank. I built myself a little failboat and sailed right in there. I got rejected by nearly all of them, except for my back up, which was a course thats useless anyway. So I decided that I didnt want to be a teacher anymore and I applied at UCB to do theatrical and media make up art. I got in, which is pretty cool. Im staying to finish my A-levels though, cause' I get EMA and I hate leaving things unfinished.

Ohh I went to some gigs too.
Avenged Sevenfold/Stone Sour - I now hate A7X and Stone Sour =[
Paramore - I was seated, but they were still epic =]
Bullet For My Valentine - I ended up paying twice for this cause I wanted to go standing last minute and I went purely for Bring Me The Horizon, It was totally worth it :)
In April ima see Bring Me at the O2, my birthday present to myself :)

I also started driving lessons, Im still alive, So its going great =]